Just the beginning

The greatest failure and test of my life...a divorce.  I didn't even see it coming.  Shock followed by sadness followed by anger then acceptance.  This cycle is repeated almost every day.  In the five months following my husband's revelation that our marriage is over, life has settled into a pattern of when do I get my kids, how long are they away from me, how did this happen, and how can I go on.  The truth is I have to go on.  I have 5 kids and I love them with everything I am.  They are the light of my life and I have to show them that despite adversity of any nature, you can go on and even thrive.  Am I thriving?  No, not yet, but writing this blog is a start. 

My purpose in writing this blog is to vent on any subject that comes to mind, have fun with a little analysis of Capt. Jack, and most importantly to see if anything I have to say can help someone else.  I hope so.  I feel so deeply what sadness is right now.  In the midst of it, I look around and see so many other people mired in their own grief and trials.  No one escapes it, not in this life.  But being a deeply religious person I also believe that we are here to experience joy.  Have I experienced it?  Absolutely..in the birth of my children, while scuba diving, while camping on a beach on the Colorado river, eating chocolate, having a tax audit done (oops not that).  The point is that the list of joy goes on and on, it's just that sometimes I forget to remember it.

So Love it, Hate it, Read it, Don't, Add to it, Comment and Review....I'll ride the waves to where ever this therapy takes me.  So to add a quote from the blog's namesake, "You're suppose to be dead!"  Capt Jack, "Am I not?".  Nope, I'm not and I don't plan on it anytime soon.